Here's the truth. I get it wrong all day long.
I shoot arrows of anger straight at their hearts.
I battle the voice of the enemy whispering âitâs all for nothingâŚâ
âIf only you would haveâŚ.â
âSee I told you soâŚâ
But I keep showing up with the things God has taught me over the years because my failure then and now is exactly the point.
My story is one of family disintegration that seemed beyond repair.
Itâs about deeply broken thinking
attachment
theology
relationships and
parenting.
Though many of the things I faced were outside of my control, the only option was for me to assume complete responsibility for challenges my children faced as a result of my brokenness.
Redemption canât rest on a cracked foundation of blame.
ButâŚ.
the stories of Godâs goodness hidden absolutely everywhere in
my life are endless.
His steady healing despite my deep flaws is constant.
His faithfulness to revive my strength when Iâm ready to tap out is humbling.
If this is your story tooâŚ.
If failure haunts you and fear taunts you and youâre afraid youâll never have the family youâve dreamed ofâŚ.
Let me remind you of two things.
đThe perfect family in your mind is an illusion.
Itâs ok that you dream of long talks and deep trust and one for all, all for oneâŚ.
But perfection doesnât exist in families no matter what your friends seem to have or the internet says.
And alsoâŚ
đThe God who gave you this beautiful, flawed crew wants to transform your life.
âď¸ Youâll have to trade in some of your dreams.
âď¸ It wonât go the way you think.
âď¸ Itâs not easy and doesnât happen overnight.
But when moms get honest with themselves and offer the whole rubbled mess to God, he gets to work rebuilding us from the inside out.
And when moms are transformed,
kids can be too.
Psalm 27:13
What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lordâs goodness in the land of the living!